A Trip to Future Glory !

Am back again ... here at my HQ , a trip to Rajahmundry ( a place known for the Godavari River and yes the best green places ) few days stay there trying and hoping to build some market and gaining some share... and then an immediate trip to Hyderabad ... for a meeting of course ! Ohhh How I Love this Place...I just Love it ...it brings back to me those times and memories...times that were not so easy, not so pleasant, and yes very tough , also times that were sweet, that were nice, and that taught me a lot . I Love hyd for several reasons ...and I fail to know how many and why! May be 'cos some of the toughest learning times happened to me there...may be 'cos some seemingly sweet memories come back to me...may be 'cos I just relate to it so much... and may be just more ...I don't know and I would not wana too...anyways hyd got me to once again show case my self and my ability and I guess I did well in my presentation at the meet ...it was more on how and where I got to take my businesses across the coming year '06 and by how much would I score over the past year ... coming to think of it sales is always about scoring more and more and more even if there is nothing more to score!!!

Am back here again ...hungry for a good sleep a good rest and may be some good 'company' ... come to think of it girls are no longer in my head ...awww how can that be now ? I was so much into getting to know the work that I almost have forgotten da single most entertaining and everlasting factor - gurls ! Ofcourse I keep in touch wid a few over the phone particularly one , but that s ok ...I guess I need to climb higher now ... month end ( synonym for month - end sales review !) is coming ...which means I got to prepare again on my sales...ohh gosh ...the more I wana get away from the word the more I hapopen to use it ! And then there is a branch level meet @Chennai ... and that wud be BIG ...I mean Real Big ! God Bless ! The coming months would be trial testing my abilities and making a ground for my higher -ups to 'watch' my performance and review me ... that sorta gets mices running in my stomach ...but hey ... what fun wud work be if there s no Tension, Pressure and Challenge ! I am willing to 'play' the best innings ... I just hope the bosses watch out ... they wud not wana take a break when I am standing there at the 'Crease' heheheh... and wat am I gona do now ...saturday eve...well... got no gurl wid me now...so no way I can get into a Pub... may be a Movie...or may be jus hang on to the Comp ...lol ... guess I need to chuck out ... c ya ltrz .

If u wish to face 'pressure' ... don't feel it just fcuk it !

Imagine urself involved with two or may be three chiks that u love the most and each of them knowing the fact...and each of them wanting u (rather a piece of u!!) and that u can NOT choose just one !!!! And neither can U get away ...cos ya fcking Love them or want 'em...what wud ya do... and what wud I do ... ????? God help me ! I wud wana be in that situation more b'cos that would make me feel like, am one helluva Cassanova! But I cud give it a toss too ... cos I know I could just literally get smacked down ! Talking about chiks(My seemingly FAV topic!) , my adrenaline is always on the high...but right now it ain't chicks ...it's about My Goal...My work ...My targets ... My whattafcukever...I now realise what pressure feels like ...few hours ago I happened to converse over the phone with My Boss ...and two minutes into the talk ...we were sparring at each other ...words...syllables...preferably...heated ones...I finally had what u can call a spat wid my boss...reason...he expects me to be the God and be present everywhere and accomplish just about everything...Holy Goddness, grace me !!!!!!! What am I supposed to say ... I for the first time ever 'voiced' out my concern...and yes I did shout' loud' enough for him to 'calm' down...I went like ''what wud u expect me to do ...if U want me to achieve the whole OPL( Target/Plan) in one gulp!'' ... The Story goes like this ...yes'day I get a call from my operational( Rememeber I got THREE bosses!!!) boss ...he sounded so very urgent and important...and I was made aware that I had to cancel all my further trips to any place across the territory and stay put at my HQ(Head Quarters) and that he would appreciate if I cud meet him at his house in the morning at 8 am !!!!!(thats the usual time I get wake up !) and so there I was 15 minutes before , a blue moon sorta thing for me ,but I made it there...and I was told about an important operation that would be in place come the next week...here I was, motivated , pumped up and geared and yes confused...cos I had a lot to do in the two important places of the territory which meant the most for my business...and here I was ...scouting and counting up a third... hmmm there I was trying to squeeze a lot of time 'space' and yes LUCK! I need time ...a lot , space ...yes ...some space my bosses would 'gift', so that I can rearrange my working method and analyse my priorities , and yes LUCK in immeasurable volumes !!!!! In Sales its always not the ''best'' and the ''first'' , but its best and first compared to someone and something else ... @relative ...Einstein had the brains to accalim it loud to the world decades ago ... pity most salesmen don't realise it as soon as to understand the process of it ... Coming months are going to trial test my Grit , Courage , Determination and a lot more ... I am just willing to pit myself against time ... and wait , to see if I am what I really think I am ! As for Pressure , I hope it comes all loaded , heavy and Real Hard ... 'cos I am all guns ready ... after all how many times in Life would one get a chance to proove himself great ...not many , I believe not at all many ... months from now I am gona be here , writting a story... one that would speak loud of what Grit is about , what Sheer Determination is about and what Raw Courage speaks about...a story that can help make me a better and a more assured man ! Wait for it!!!

VALENTINES - DAME' TIMES

What would you do if you were stranded between two or may be three things that you would desperately want , but pity you have the choice to get just one !!!!!!!!!!! About 95% of the people would sit there pondering what to choose, what to opt for and finally end up with neither of the things ! Among the rest 5 % , atleast 4 % have an equal chance of taking the WRONG one ! Talking about that rare category of 1% ... bastards...they are always damn perfect...dead right and terribly Lucky! They just get all of them !!! A whole era of one's life is spent about 'getting' into that 1% category ... wonder how many make it into 'that ' ... I , all my life have been desperately wanting to be into that...But fcuk my luck ...never made it there lol . I guess I would keep on trying to get there...perhaps one day I might just get there ! Today happens to be Valentines Day... God bless...all lovers and the so-called lovers ... about guys like me ...guess we could just spend the day working just in case we have some ...or just sit there and not think its a Valentines ... I was sitting at a Coffee Shop and happened to realise it was indeed Feb 14 th...Holy Heavens...I have never been excited about feb 14 th all my Life...Don't know why ...may be 'cos I just did not how to make 'use' of it ...or may be I just did not have someone to 'burn' my bucks on ...on this 'auspicious' day ...or may be I was God Damn Lucky not to have a Girl Friend...Trust me ...I am not aware of what the word actually means ...True...Girl Friend...for me is a girl who is a friend or a friend who happens to be a girl!...perhaps I could be rated among those people who the world would acclaim as ''Morons'' ....Awww ... that makes me laugh.... Moron...the commonly used word borrowed from the US of A which our own Desi chaps use either to showcase their knowledge about the exsistence of USA ! or just to be associated with the ''Yo Mann! ...we Cool! ''hep types and ofcourse some use it to intend the right meaning , well, as u know the world ain't devoid of the 'represenataives' !. Talking about girls... I knew a girl...I mean I do know her even now of course ( God help me !) who was real cute (was she ???)...I mean real good, nice and may be you should just take help of the dictionary beside for more words...All I could get out of her for all the months I knew her was may be some phone calls ... hmmm let me say few not some ! and ofcourse few graceful occasions when with all my inborn intelligence I could just get her to meet me ...you would laugh if I were to tell ya on what reasons I could get her to meet me ...of course it was never the regualar 'CUP OF COFFEE' style ...Trust me I wasn't the sweet smiling cool charming hunk , I mean I can smile sweet alrite , and yes I can be charming but somehow I can never get myself to act as one wid a gurl !!!... I was more like the raw meal than the multi-cusine from the heavens...lol I laugh a lot as I replay those 'memorable' days ... I was damn outright , terribely honest for a guy trying to impress a girl and astoundingly upfront and too 'raw' for a gentleman ...heheh. Hmmm...but then that was me ...and I prided myself for being so...but in the heart of hearts ... I was a child...a mere simple boy next door...someone who was all ready to impress and take care of his 'lady'...but ofcourse that never was shown and I never wanted to show it the world...they say guys like me are rare...'cos they are just not sure about what they should be ! lol...hell, care a dime about those who say that ...anyway about this girl... I was like ...I mean I was ...stupified and stumped ! Never sure as to how I cud approach her and never sure as to what I would wana talk with her and worse of the worst NEVER SURE about what is it that I wanted from her , was it Love , infatuation, care , company , chcolates??? , toffess??? atleast money ??? ...heavens grace me ...I was never sure...that money part I was sure... I neva would get into a relatiuon ship for Money ...lol that s not in my Blood ! And so on the time passed 3 months , few months, an year , a little more than that and finally two years !!! I look back and think about what kinda guy was I, that I could not get to talk to her as much and meet her as much and I always laugh at the mere thought of going out for a movie with her ...fcukkkkk!!!! and that thought , is still a dream ...not that I care an inch anymore now...I have left that story go by ...bygones are BYE Gones , I once happened to ask her out for a movie...and she squeezed out a wonder'fool' reason... that she had to teach her bro some study stuff that eve ! And many months later I came to know that she was not sure if she cud come with me to a movie...I felt bad...I would have felt less bad if she said that b4 , when I first asked her out a NO cud have torn through cardiac muscles like a piercing arrow ... but I cud have taken the bloody pain then( sometimes u just ain't that lucky to decide when u wana loose even !) ...and now , as I ponder about what went wrong or what did not go RIGHT! Trust me , I am still CLUELESS ! She did have a boyfriend ( I don't understand who a boyfriend is ... a Lover , A guy who just happened to attract a gurl or some one who is a 'pitstop'until the next 'pitstop' !) , she later said they broke up ...huh... things like these happen ... not bad ...but what is sad is that they happen too fast and too many times to the same person... I been hearing such 'stories' from my kid days ...made me loose 'trust' in something called LOVE ( IF IT SO DESERVES TO BE KNOWN as), I fail to understand what kinda relation is that , when a guy and a gurl call themselves gf-bf , I lost on that count...I no more believe much on that ...I do believe Love can happen... and I wud be the first guy standing there to see if it can happen to me ! But what wud u or I call a thing that happens to a gurl or a guy when he/she breaks up on a little more than a few realationships ! Certainly Not Love... 'cos for me Love is something that can happen and stay forever and not just disappear...I now think I cud have been lucky when it came to this gurl ... for one I was not sure what was it I wanted ... two... I was not sure if she were the right one if at all I wanted her to be mine ! And three FRIENDS IS FINE ... A LITTLE MORE THAN FRIENDS IS ALMOST A WINE THAT LEAVES UR SENSES ON THE NEXT MORN RUN! ADIOS ...

FIGURES & NUMBERS !

Hmmm ... a lot has has changed in the past one month , I got worse , and then worser and may be real bad at Numbers...got to know more about what I should be doing as regards Numbers ... I mean I have been doing numbers ...achieving them ,gaining on them ...but what I have not been doing is not knowing which number comes from where... in a layman's lingo which product of mine contributes how much and when and from where ... its like ploughing the field hard , very hard ...but just not knowing where one should sow which seed and from where comes which crop... if you understood what I am trying to say , well and good if you did not ...please don't ask me anymore ... that s the best I can do ... Now , at the beginning of Feb , I find myself wanting in a few more aspects , numbers for one - where , how , how many , and how best ! But I do believe I am better off than when I first started , people now expect a lot from me ...or am I wrong here ? In sales people expect a lot more than just a lot from just everyone !!! Well.. forget about others ...about me ...I got some hard target to hit... that reminds me of Jean Claude Van Damme @Hard Target (The Movie)...Man this guy's great ...I admire him ...The Movie was top class...a real piece of John Woo in the making ... ooops wat am I talking , heheheh sales to movies quite interesting! My Hard Target? ... is quite hard...in fact very hard ...but what is it about me ... I always am Motivated , Driven , Hard core , Propelled when it comes to Challenges...God given right I think ...its in the breath and blood... I am more than excited about the coming months ...because they would test my grit , strength , will and yes my ATTITUDE.

Talking about my personal Life...I guess there is nothing called personal these days for me ...no fun, no entertainment, NO GURLS !!! What am I doing ...without these ? People do have fun...what am I having ??? I guess I will get my day too , until then I would wait and go on about my work and my Life ... and you people out there take good care of yourselves and yea don't forget to have FUN ! Adios... Amigo